Yes, I'm Leah and I'm 16, and I've been cutting for 2 years. I'm also trying to quit.
I'll put this in the cut because it's very descriptive about cutting.
Sometimes I just want to cry, I just want to feel the tears flowing down my face, I just want to feel the blade underneath my skin, as it drags through with ease, releasing it's blood. I just feel so down, and I feel so alone. I know I have people who love me. But when I get down like that, I don't know I just hate myself, and I truely believe that no one loves me, I try to change the way I feel, and remember it's not the bad. But I just hate myself so much in those moments, I don't want to feel. I just want to die. But I can't kill myself. I could never do it to my friends and family, so I cut myself, to supply momentary relief. Just feeling my skin tearing apart, my veins splits and splurting out blood. I don't know, it help some how. Sometimes, I just want to cry, when I look at my life.
Also, I'm not sure, but I think I was molested when I was a child, and I think that is a big part of why I'm so deppressed. Does anyone know how I can tell if i was? I'm not sure if my mind is just making things up or not?